where it all started

my name is grace. I have journaled my whole life and it's always been something that soothes me and lets me be sentimental and nostalgic while also being able to say it's 'self help' even when it's definitely just me sitting in the past. I love writing. I've alway loved writing, but I never had an outlet that people were able to see it. I'm still not sure if I want people to see the things that I have written over the years, so this blog may stay a secret forever. but maybe, just maybe, this blog could give me the opportunity to share my writings and the pages that I have filled with people that I have encountered and lost and experiences and fears and ambitions and plans and hopes for my future self. I get nervous about doing new things and putting my heart out on the internet for people to criticize or the wrong person to come across it or for my stories to not be heard the way that I wish they would. being a leo, I live and thrive off of adoration and praise. I don't know how to handle getting anything other than those things. so here I am- putting my heart on the line bc life is short and I want to leave a lasting mark on this earth somehow? and what if it meant something so much more in a couple of years. and what if this is what I needed these last two years? I need more out of this life and maybe this blog will lead me to it or steer me away from what has run me so dry